Friday, December 31, 2010

Farewell 2010




Leaving Kansas once again...


Ludwig


G-time with Sam

San Diego Zoo Trip

April Sip and See


Playtime with Uncle Bobby


Alex and Stephanie's Peru Mission Trip

Alex's first Marathon takes place in Oregon

Sychar places #1

Babysitting trip to Austin


Shanna and Alan's August Wedding


Sad return to Kansas City


September Farewell to Dad
Sam's first BU homecoming!


Bring on 2011!















Monday, December 20, 2010

Dear Santa,
All I want for Christmas this year is my family!
I want to cradle my granddaughter, read to her from my holiday stack, look into the eyes of my adult children and see Christmases past.
Distance is my enemy. Miles empty my soul.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Sometimes we just groan. Sometimes words cannot be found. The heaviness of this broken world renders us speechless. Is evil, illness, injustice swallowing us?
Sometimes we just groan.
Our Advocate groans as well. He divinely sighs, rescuing the broken one who has no hope of escaping his condition.
He yearns for our likeness to the Son. He intercedes for our eternal security.
He groans on our behalf, offering our silent weight to the Heavens.
Sometimes we just groan.

Monday, November 15, 2010

The probate petition arrives in the mail. It might as well be stamped: Final.
God, I don't think I have the energy to travel this road of rememberance again.
Grief sucks the life out of me. Yet, You remind me that You go before me and that You hold all things together. So the journey begins with one trusting step after another while You lead.
Each painful memory of being a second thought will be soothed with a sweet reminder that You loved me first!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Samantha is One!

Happy Birthday Samantha!!!
You are the love of our life...
xoxo Granddaddy and Gigi xoxo



Wednesday, September 22, 2010

I launch the dvd and I melt.
The heart, so guarded, yields to memories.
I struggle to seize the sweet ones, but I know they simmer deep in my being.
Little girl hugging daddy's neck...once upon a time, there must have been affection.
Lasting images collapse the reserve and the dam breaks.
I gasp and choke with pain and regret for recent photos scream his numbered days.
Did this weathered man's heart yearn for the sweet ones as well?

Friday, September 17, 2010

"I still love you."
Words on a birthday card; words that sear my soul.
A phone call, girded with prayer and hope for reconciliation, fails to connect.
Again, disappointment bruises my heart.
Dial once again? Or simply let hope find its way on parchment wings?
Time runs out...wavering misses the deadline.
Guilt punches me again and again. Did his heart cry regret and yearn for one last conversation?
Betrayal fades slowly...forgiveness often comes too late.
Can affection reach the heavens?